failed.

actually it is okay that we only meet once in a week, or maybe because of you say so. everytime i thought i am already quite missing you while we are texting, like everyday. but things turn out to be lil different, once i saw any photo of you was uploaded to your profile or your own photo that uploaded by you, i am sure that I DO REALLY MISS YOU, LIKE .... A LOT.

okay shut up! our distance is not that far, at least we are on the same land. but i am a girl silly ; a silly girl. anyway, i am a girl.

p/s: feel so sorry of not attending my primary&secondary school old friend's wedding. initially i told her i surely will be there but ended up not turning up, I AM JUST A FAILURE.

its 415am.

good night.

我累了..

这几天.... 我真的累了.. 我是真的累了。

在想着自己是不是在别人面前装的太坚强了，所以真的累了的时候，却不会有人关心，甚至只是一句简单的问候。我也竟然为了太想要被关怀而哭了.. 那一整天假笑，戴着面具，回到家还要做同样的事情，其实我不知道我什么时候会崩溃。有时候我是不能在撑了... 却不想让自己掉眼泪，所以宁可自己鼻酸到要死，都不想让别人看见。我在他们的心目中，永远都是做傻事的，笑哈哈的，一副开心果的样子，但你们却不知道，就算是开心果，果实也会有腐烂的一天。

他们只会记得我喝醉时做的傻事，在厕所为小盆栽浇水，走不到直线，找不到钥匙却拿护照出来.. 然后笑........... 他们成天只看我笑，当我要有心事想告诉他们时，其实他们都好像没有在听我说话，有一天我还发脾气了。我不喜欢我在说话时没有人理会，却要我继续说，根本就没有在尊重我。

可是当我软弱下来，当我哭泣的时候，却没有人会记得我也需要被关心。其实我想的只是在你身边撒娇，让我自己也感觉到安全感，我是被保护的。我知道我自己是不能好像其他女生一样爹声爹气的撒娇，实话我不是那种人，可是我就是想用我自己的方式撒娇，我也想在你身边，在你面前时把坚强收起，让你站在我前面为我阻挡一切，可以的话我真的一辈子也站在你身后，你为我挡我就在后面为你打气。

我该继续假装坚强? 但不装也装也那么久....... 既然我是坚强的，那我还在意在乎什么? 但我就是不甘心。

惊喜!

哈哈哈～ 当我看到他们都上镜时我真的忍不住笑了，

然后回忆起那时的表情跟惊喜! x))

上飞机那天，那个林先生竟然骗我!! 骗我说在朋友房间玩，结果让我看到他在飞机场!! 哈哈哈哈哈~

当我在check in counter和朋友聊天的时候，突然心里在想那只猪怎么真的没有来飞机场找我，结果身边的朋友突然问我说站在对面的男生有个很像你男朋友。当我转头看过去时真的傻眼!! 他和他的朋友好像黑色会大佬那样站在那里看着我，我还以为我自己在做梦! -.- 可是我真的打从心里笑了........................................ :DDD

当我飞着过去时，他就看着我笑，我也看着他笑，哈哈哈!! 还问他我是不是在做梦，捏我的脸吧!! 然后就陪我到差不多上飞机时才离开。期间还拉他着他，只有我们两个人去走走，两个人嘛~ :p 差不多到时间上飞机时他牵我到思颖她们面前要她们看着我，哇尴尬到!! 哈哈哈哈~ 可是他走开时我又跑到他旁边去，他还问我做么跟过来，就是想赖着你!! 嘻嘻嘻嘻~

林先生要离开时还给个抱抱我!! 嘻嘻~ 当然还有谢谢陪他来的朋友，你们的手信在我这! 不过礼轻心意重! :))

你就是喜欢给我这样的惊喜!! <3

可我回来啦! :))

DONE HERE!

these few days were like a nightmare! rushing my task like mad, i have no experience in it and i can only rely on myself! what to do, i feel so stress!

FINALLY i have done all my drafting, i am already happy like mad now -.- laughing non stop during our phone call! x)) altho the finalize still undergoing on tomorrow, if the lecturer can't satisfied with my sentences and so on and i still needa correct it BUT THE POINT IS I HAVE NO MORE TIME!! since we are going overseas for a field trip soon, it really make me feel so panic of finding pax to our lunch service.

anyway, READY TO GO FOR AN OVERSEA TRIP!!! yuuuhoooooooooooooooooo~

thanks for accompanying me sweetheart. thanks for enduring my bad temper and vexatious! <3

ciaoooooooo.

FML ~

今天上MPW简直就是多余两个字。早上7点多么不想起床，结果就赖到8点才起，830走到学校但都还没有开始。-.- 2个小时半一直在发抖，冷到我啊........................................ 真的在抖!!! 去到学校时 Mong 就跟在我后面，然后跑来跟我一起进班，'' why are you so late? '', '' you too larr!! '' , '' hehh, i live far from college... '' , '' me toooooooooo :p '' , '' ............. '' 幸好这节老师给看电影，我真的很累，所以睡了.. x))

过后一大班讨论整整半个小时去哪里吃早餐，顶他们不顺。吃完赶回去上1130的课，可是迟到了，老师已经在里面发牢骚，烦不烦? -.- 谢天谢地她又给看电影，听珊说我原来是从课室一关灯我就开始睡，睡到电影差不多要完毕时就醒来了，哈哈哈哈哈哈~ 我真的有很累 -.-

差不多每个星期五都去支持 CULA 1 的午餐，这轮mimi他们也一起哦!! :))

LEFT: Theva, Marcus, Anin, Mimi (Izumi) :p

我的一班挚爱!! =]

就来压力死了，真的真的很压力。而我，真的只需要一点点安慰，真的就一点点，我就满足了。因为这样我又哭了一个晚上，我只不过是区区一个弱者，一下子任务那么多，又没有时间准备，加上配合我做事的又是较懒惰的人，我想我这次完了吧? 算了，也不能怪谁，自己就是那么没有用。

HAIHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH...

我的天啊....

林先生终于回来了!! 他回来那天晚上就一起出去跟他家人吃饭，有歹势到咯... 本来很期待第一眼看到他谁知道他跟他朋友迷路了，但他到的时候看到他就忍不住笑了，他也笑到好花痴下~ 哈哈!! 感觉像发梦，他竟然在我面前出现了，而且感觉上他看到我的样子很花痴!! 乔到...... 哈哈哈~


吃饱就送我回家了，好不舍得因为只聚一下子，他自己也这样说喔.. LOL 到家了他就跟着我下车，然后在车尾拿了他自己的包包，跟我进屋子后就从他包包拿了一袋东西出来。我一看，他说这些全部都是他买给我的手信，当时我尴尬之余还真的傻掉了，说怎么那么多啊?? 他的答案竟然是 '' 哎呀，买下买下就那么多了咯~ '' 买这么多给我，自己买给自己的却只有一个相机跟几件衣服，还说如果要他的衣也可以给我，女生穿男生的衣很型，林先生傻傻的!! 搞到我好像也有跟去玩酱，haihhhhhhhhh... 林先生呐~

好喜欢这个有我名字的牌子!! :DD

没有想到他会买水瓶给我!!
酱子下来我以后就不能不带水去学校了咯? 高招! :p

之前去泰国都忘了给自己买件hard rock的衣服，结果竟然了了我的心愿!!
他自己的是黑色的~~~ :DD
还有印着princess字的衣服... :pp

这个这个!!! 我戴了很想小孩子叻..... 不过这个很可爱!! @@

这两个大包包!! 实用极了!!

当天晚上还聊了2个小时的电话，天呐好好聊叻可是.... 还开门见山讲了很多之前不敢告诉他的话，emo 了一阵子还喝了一点的胆果然是大点的。聊聊下大概4点才睡觉，O.O

anyway, 谢谢林先生的心意，全部收进心里啦!! hehehehehehhe <3

MHSH.

a fellow phoned me at the last hour of my birthday! seriously i was getting mad, who cares since hes my boy then he should be the 1st, ngekngekngek~ i thought he would probably forget about it as hes enjoying hes vacation with his lovely family members. LUCKILY HE DIDN'T. you know what, he phoned me at the 1st hour of my birthday but he asked me TO SLEEP EARLIER and told me some stories but i was like '' Excuse me, what do you suppose to say beside those? '' and then was kinda disappointed after ending the call. blablabla~

at the last hour i thought he would just told me some interesting stories again but he popped out with HAPPY BIRTHDAY feiizhuuuu. i was like.... heheheehhehehehehe and quite touch. yes i am a person who is very easy to be satisfied by even a word. :)) he told me he bought quite a lot of stuffs for me, but i was quite embarrassed after i heard it. he said he miss me a lot for twice! muahahaha okay he was forced to mention again for the second time because i said it is still my big day! :p but i hope his words were real for sure! x))

almost a call each day! oh just MHSM -.-

ciaoooooooooooo.