( David, Lawrence, Auggie, Violet, Jonah, Ella, Riley )

Melrose Place.

OHHHH. i have no idea because i am catching this drama like seriously crazy. i found this drama playing in a sudden, and i admit that i only started watching 2 weeks ago, but i rather likey their storyline. and now they are finding the murder! ohmyohmy. so excited! i love while they are talking, the way of slang is pretty sweet. AHAHAHA ofcourse, the love stories duh. i love David and Jonah, David is rich and he owns a Porsche! a very handsome and lovely and caring but Jonah is way toooooooooo lovely and caring altho he hates Riley being with Auggie. AHHHH, i just can't stop sticking with my tv and credits to my dad accidentally signed the Beyond plan so i can accidentally found it. the important is i can spend more time at living room. :))

p/s: pain won't last forever unless you never change. remember this!

annyeonghii people.

the loves one.

AHAHAHAH. i think we have a long time never chat like that, just simply miss the moment. and i am gonna meet her when i am studying in kayL, so looking forward. shes still that soft-hearted, and always got hurt, i wonder why. altho she didn't tell me the real reason, as i always ask her to be more tough and defend herself from being hurt. i always hope she can one day. love.

when the day approached, i am feelin' more nervous. mygod.

annyeonghii people.

照。

那天到小学看弟弟怎么三八，他真的很三八。老师说什么他都懂，练跑就跑你的啦，啊口水还真多过茶。

中学的时光虽然很怀念，但是，小学的时光，更是不能忘记的回忆。小学天真无邪的笑容，觉得不管是认识的还是不认识的，都是朋友。中学里的明争暗斗，感觉每走一步都是陷阱。可是，陪着我们一起成长的朋友们，就是在中学每一年的礼物。中学毕业后，就只能靠经过的机会来眺望，头伸得特别的靠近车窗，看看里头在上课的学弟学妹们。毕竟马来校，不能随便进出。所以，23号拿成绩那天，希望有时间回来，我想回学校。

小学，那天回去，回忆也一起来了。在班上打打闹闹，作弄老师，被罚，逃课去篮球场，道歉祈求老师原谅，永远都不会忘记。小学的时光，却已经是六年前的事了，时间怎么能够那么快?

(庆幸手机有如此的拍摄效果。)

回学校开心的，是回忆，扫兴的，却是老师到此时此刻还记得以前我们的顽皮。但一切，都值得。 :))

annyeonghii people.

AHHHHH. finally managed to know when is the actual day of our result will be announced, like at least. brace up to call to my counselor this morning and confirm with him my accommodation, and yes i am taking a student house type with Triple Single Bed in a room. initially i was thinking how could a normal room accommodate 3 beds? eventually i got the answer from my counselor and he said it is a master bed room. and i was like hmmmm, well.. okay. :))

since i am really seriously boring like a freak! and i found i bought these novels and i haven't finished reading them. so here we gooooooooooo.

AHAHAHAHHH. how euphoric am i. i found the map of taking public transport around my study area. and i even told yunyee that i can take LRT to klcc so we can meet up! ;)) will go through it since i love exploring thing by myself. AHAHAH

I WANT TO SPEND MORE TIME AT HOME.

annyeonghii people.

害。怕

够力了。昨晚跟佩晶和莹喝茶去了，当做是佩晶帮我们践行吧，加上真的不知道什么时候才能看到她了。昨晚上偏偏不是很想说话，真该死。最衰就是那个复杂，前晚还讲电话，然后跟我说一堆很可怕的事，什么她和渊玲要四月1号才去，然后我又那么早开课，所以要自己一个人住先。啊不然就说什么等下你爸妈载到你去那 里，然后帮你放行李，收拾一下，然后就跟你说什么保重啊，要常打电话回家之类的话。哇，那一刻我还真想打昏她，弄我差点先预哭了...

其实时间越是靠近，我越是紧张。虽然有时没有想到害怕的时候，还是会很兴奋，因为要认识更多不同性格的朋友，要把自己最自私的一面丢掉。但是当自己一个人的时候，难免会胡思乱想。想着，如果成绩很差怎么办??!! 如果还停留在该死的害羞真么办??!! 如果如果如果... 很多个如果之后，就是 - 害怕。

其实对她们拿的mass com是有兴趣的，但是想着三个学同样的东西又同班会有很少的话题，因为三个看的东西，遇到的问题都一样，想着不然我拿我另外一个有兴趣的读，会不会好一点呢? 虽然我知道这将会是很大的挑战，而且这是一个很需要学习独立的科目，也要会自己照顾自己，因为会常常要出外的。害。怕

暂时什么都是 一。个。人。

老是那样。

如果如果如果如果的过后，就是害怕。

annyeonghii people.

终于。

终于能够松一口气了。之前一直在烦，到底直接到国外还是先留下来，相信没有什么人知道我之前说要去哪里。那里真的相当好，免费吃免费住，这就是我能得到的待遇，毕竟那里消费很高，生活水品更高，没有这样的待遇除非你很有钱。LOL 更何况，自己觉得还不是时候到那里去，所以国外念头 - 打消!

刚从ktn回来，KDU辅导员到那里的office做roadshow, 所以vyonne姐就通知我他们来了。去到那里本来是一位男生讲解的，最后变两位，而且他们很可爱下的咯，倒自己的米。哈哈哈~ 他们也有讲很多自己的经验，自己觉得那样的日子，将近了。 最重要是!! TRIAL 成绩跟他们的要求还幸运地多了，开始真的把我吓死了，他们的样子还以为自己不符合要求，虽然有不及格啦。好歹势 >< 期间还要拿3套制服，星期一跟五要穿，weekend可能有pratical training.. 啊!! 惨了惨了。

可是九月好像要去别的地方做practical... 是爽可是一定很累，很累。

期待来自全世界的朋友! 期待新生活! 期待和老朋友在异地上课! ;))

p/s: 1st time ever to put cantonese song in my blog. but the song has a lot of pictures to remember.

annyeonghii people!

当我不在的时候，我希望我弟能告诉我家里发生什么事。
当我不在的时候，我希望我弟能告诉我爸爸有没有跟妈妈聊天。
当我不在的时候，我希望我弟不要再做错事。
当我不在的时候，我希望你们都乖乖的。
当我不在的时候，你们要自己会想，我不能再每次提醒你们，上厕所要冲水，拿了我的东西要放回原位，要问过了才可以拿别人的东西。

其实每次回家发现你们都没有做到我说过的东西，超级心痛。我凶不起来，就算凶你们也不怕，我就是不明白，为什么我凶不起来。我骂你们，很凶的骂，你们还是一样顶我，还是给我鬼脸看，嘴里骂你们，可是我就是生气不久。

选择不那么早离开，是因为最近发生太多事情，太想离开了。可是，就是害怕会错过些什么，讨厌你们，可是还是喜欢和你们相聚。虽然很不开心，真的很不开心，感觉你们也不要我了，好像越去越远越好。其实我真的不喜欢....... 我选择别的也是因为那个原因。我也不会后悔。

annyeonghii people.

stayed a night in ktn house. while havin' breakfast at old town, mom saw there are a new uni finder office there. after i finished my meal and i headed there with my mom. a very friendly jiejie came forward and we talked almost for an hour! she gave me all these booklets not only for malaysia's uni but also overseas. since dad and mom spoke out a sentence that freaked me out.

btw, i am really thankful to all who has given me their own opinion, although i don't know whether if they could help me. but candidly i will be more consider to think of it.

will this place to be my next stop? if i succeed to find a uni that suits me in that place within this few months, i probably will leave.

Parents to be more supportive will make me decide easier. but....


annyeonghii people.

midnight.

ARHHHHHH. already 3am and i am still up. suddenly feel like buying something, maybe my hands got itchy so i visited those website where i used to do online shopping before. well, finally i got managed to buy something, the important is the prices are fucking reasonable. anyhow, still a bit hard to find for more which i very in love with, so i guess i'll stop and visit next time. :))

i never thought i can simply grab some tops there. AHAHAH

ALRIGHT, gotta off.

annyeonghii people.

是不是说，越多秘密的人，越多朋友/知心朋友? 其实你变的越来越不像你自己，让我 ... 不敢再靠近你。自从我知道了后，感觉 ... 我不想再向前任何一步，只想退后，退到你/你们看不见我的地方，即使说我胆小。我真的好害怕，好想离开。以前的你在哪里了? 为什么变了? 在我遇到瓶颈的时候，你永远都是我最想找的人。但自从你变了以后，就算到了瓶颈的极限，我还是找不到适合的人选。或许说，别人比我遇瓶颈的时候多，你到他们那里去了。

突然间，不想和你有任何的关系，即使是敌人也不想，因为敌人也是种关系。我常常想恨你，想尽办法，理由去恨你，可是那些所谓的理由跟办法，都不是我所要的。简单来说，我恨不下去。你最喜欢的，就是秘密。

××××××××××××××××

wheeeeeeeeeeee. i was just came back from my dad's friend BBQ party. i realize that the generation of my dad, they all can maintain their friendship pretty well. i heard them still singing song together altho they are now at least 50 years old. i was so envy and sinful that i didn't bring along my camera and shoot those memorable scenes down. i love to serve small kids, if they demand for something, they can be very well manner, they keep their manner till the end for sure. i really love them.

besides, i found my childhood friend in fb again. shes getting more prettier and shes departing to aussie too. hmm, there are a lot of people whos flying out of malaysia. like julius, last minute our yc plan eventually realized and i did feel a little bit reluctant to say good bye. why people keep leaving? :((

i want to wake up earlier.
annyeonghii people.

i am picking up something like the pic above! how grateful! AHAHAHA. and i never though i would have this chance. :))


thanks dad&mom. loveyou.

昨晚下了一场大雨，很大很大的雨。犹豫了? 是我的心下雨了。很不可思议的一个晚上，我在想，是不是自己冲动了呢? 如果不是我，结局就不会是那样。但如果不是我，如此直接的对白，是不会从我们口里说出来的。

真的从来没有试过，哭了冷静了下来，情绪还是困扰着，又哭了。对怀着关心的朋友们，想跟你们说声对不起。是我不明白，为什么可以解决的事情，要逃避? 为什么局外人比我们知道的更多?

原来你们是那样想的，我明白了。对于你们说的''她''，我先帮她向你们道歉，让你们误会了。至于''她''也告诉了我即使她是很开心，她的脸还是不会笑，只希望你们明白。我从来不会向你们提''她''的，但是为了让你们知道更多，我把她搬出来了。感觉心里最深处的石头，融化了，变成了昨晚的泪。

你们都要我别想太多，一觉醒来就好了。可惜，早上一睁大眼睛，便回想昨晚的事。而且，原来忙绿真的麻木不了自己，演员还真给了我们错误的示范。


我还得等，等，等。多久?
annyeonghii people.

at least when i click REFRESH/f5 and there are different peoples sending wishes to each other. as long as there are happy, i am happy too :)) even though i am lonely for this year, but no worries i am going to have steamboat as our dinner tonight with all of my friends.

friends are valentine to those who is single. and they are what i am currently cherishing :))

and oh, HAPPY VALENTINE to you, all of you.

annyeonghii people.

i saw ..
i saw how you describe your feeling, the words.
i saw how you _________ that everyone wants you like so badly.
i saw the scenes that between me and you.
and i feel like putting them a full stop.

i never expect much until i see everything in my eyes,
i can't figure it out, eventually i was defeated by the feeling you gave me.
and so sorry that called jealousy. so what am i in your eyes?

*********

credits to zhixuan who accompanied me for a pretty while. i felt at least okay even though we did not focus on inner thoughts. and i was surprise that she said she wants to be the one, the one you wouldn't know how comedian she is. rofl

right, i gotta off to bed :))
annyeonghii people.

初九团员饭。

啊我竟然忘记了晚上要吃饭!! 睡睡下结果七点才飞去冲凉.. 失策!! 今年还是去同一个酒楼，可是老爸请少很多人，最要都是最亲的亲人和较熟的朋友而已，额外温馨。:))

当晚之attire.. ESPRIT fever!

新年指定食物? :))
我小时候最爱的男生!! 哈哈哈哈~

刚才竟然让我看到他，我的心快跳出来似的!! 心想怎么会那么巧? 还是电视里所演的缘分? 每次在这种场合都很期待看到他的出现，因为我看到他爸妈了，可是之前就是看不到。这次却是我最没有心理准备时遇见他，跟他打了个含触的招呼，我们都笑了。不知道他换位是不是有别的意思叻? 哈哈哈哈~ 我疯掉了.. 可是至少我看到他，看到他的笑了。

annyeonghii people.

啊哈哈哈。这几天晚上都一直出去，没办法，我现在是在补偿那几天在关丹的寂寞!! 今天出的比较早，8点半剑雄就来了，载了萱后就去洋家。哎... 又是要出血的时候，谁叫我守了那么多天的斋? :)) 萱的artwork. 哈哈哈哈!!

输了能做的事就是拍照! :DD

poker场。啊不，是娱乐场才是。哈哈!!

个忙个。LOL

之后到则涵则彦家拜年，但过后又不知道要去那里.. 结果又跑回洋家，继续赌。哈哈哈!!


这天比较早回家。
annyeonghii people.

哎哟哟哟。

啊撞鬼啦!! 第一次开部落格写东西是打瞌睡，酱我到底是要怎样叻? 可是我真的很多东西想记录起来叻，那么多天了啊我还真怕我会忘记。

那天初五晚上一到家，飞着冲凉就坐了颉的车出去。本来是说去萱家结果又换地点，去了慧妮家。一到她家我真的忍不到了，直接跟他们来poker。心想我还真的守了几天的斋。虽然那天尬你呐的没有luck，连本带利输了RM3，可是我竟然是笑的。

之后换地点，因为慧妮第二天要工作，家人也要睡了，所以跟大队，到颉家去。去之前我们几个去买了我们的宵夜，汉堡包!! 还在车上跟颉赌气，不要讲话，要说话就只用电话打字。哈!! 因为他驾车太快了啦!! wheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee 那么刚好林妈妈在家里开同学会，心想他们都是几个孩子的妈了，对于同学会还是那么热心，那么团结，好羡慕。不禁想象以后我们会不会还是那么团结呢!

虽然换了地点是赢回一些些，可是玩的竟然是卫生的!!
赢的还是筹码，又没有的refund，啊真的是!

之后林妈妈跟她的旧同学一起捞生，就叫了我们这几个乳臭未干的小孩子一起捞。我就很给面子的吃了两块饼干，却给他们讲我是饿鬼。啊气死了!!

回到家都快2点了，上下网就睡了咯!
annyeonghii people!

thoughts.

seriously i am so havin' green eye with whom is fully packed for their CNY schedule. i view all the photos they took, especially all the photos of you guys, hangin' out together, celebrating, ect. i have no idea what to describe my mood now, even i could not believe that i was feelin' too boring without my friends until .... i cried. HAHAHH. feelin' so clumsy of myself. yay, i hate i did such thing. you know what, this is the MOST TERRIBLE cny i ever had, feel like all of them are killing me! i was so afraid to receive my friend's sms, like ... seriously. everytime my cell rang and the sentences are constant. '' tell me when are you coming back??!! '' i am so afraid to answer this question, and i always wonder.


even ah gor is disappointed to me :(( i always think that my so called '' coming back '' is useless to them since they are like '' almost finished ''. don't get me? is okay i am used to it. btw, you bitch, i never expect you are so brave to write such thing just after 1day! i real have to solute to you.

p/s: it kills me. but i am used to be lonely as well as alone. i did everything alone.

annyeonghii people.

突发事件。

尬你呐超级无敌敌敌敌突发事件!! 他们来我家找我耶，开心死我!! 下午问翰贤在哪里，他突然告诉我他们在我家隔壁拜年，我还以为他们作弄我，可是都慢慢开始相信了。谢谢囧载我回家，不过也给机会他补偿，因为他放我飞机， 啦啦啦啦 :)) 这次跟evon姐姐又聊天哦，没办法我就是比某人来的friendly些，囧对不??

刚才翰贤突然sms我说要来我家，嘉荣又打来，刚开始还跟我玩不好意思，啊你们很无聊。最后一直喊他们来，真的来啦!! 看到他们一个个进来真的打从心底笑了.. 然后还玩炮，噼里啪啦。这个游戏中发现威超级小胆，放炮时他第一个躲到远远去，哈哈!! 然后他们的朋友，我的邻居，第一次打招呼，真的给我有机会认识到他了。花痴!! 哈哈~ 不过他们说他也是很少在家... 所以......

他们: 酱你看过她的吗?
他: 没有看过....
他们: 酱你又看过他吗?
我: 没有.. 很少看到他..
他们: 当然啦，他十年才回家一次!! 打个招呼啦...
我: harrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr ok lor... hehe HI!! :DD
他: 哈哈! haloo... :DD

(遗憾我们应该拍照一下!! 哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈 =='' )

阿弟!! :DD

诶我不懂他们zomok酱喜欢我老爸的车......... 哈哈!

可爱到啊.. 关眼睛哦!!
(他要拍多几张啦!!) 哈哈哈哈哈~

HAPPY CNY 兔 YOU!!

真的很高兴你们来。不过你们也没有亏啦，2个红包喔!! 哈哈哈哈~ 一直抓他们拍照，过后剩几个在秋千那里自恋，我们在外面聊天。可惜文鹏要搭巴士回kayL啦，不然我们要去吃东西啦.. :(( 送了他们后嘉荣sms我跟我道歉，吓到!! 道什么鬼东西，开心最重要!! 而且也没有什么好道歉的。之后再sms鹏要他小心，虽然他是男的，可是怕有花痴看中他!! 哈哈哈~ 突然他说他的巴士走了，我真的吓到!! 心里寒了一下，赶快要他再check一下，心里超级自责!! 因为我一直跟他们拍照，耽误了他赶巴士的时间。得到的回复竟然是...... '' i was joking :D '' 啊如果你在我前面我打你了!! 啦啦啦啦~ :pp

哈!! 谢谢你们.. you guys made my NIGHT!!
annyeonghii people

新年。

啊我这个新年肯定肥死。吃饱睡，睡饱看，看了玩。想到我起床的时间啊还真伤脑筋.. 而且想到我睡觉的时间啊更伤脑筋甚至要昏了。今年的红包好像严重性的减少，可能是我哪里都没有去吧，我唯一去的是ECMall.. 接触的几乎是戏院卖票的姐姐们，我想他们都认得我了吧? 哈哈~

第一天的样子。特别感谢加拿大遥远寄来的红包! :)) 还有，妈妈爸爸，爷爷奶奶，外婆，曾祖母，舅舅舅母，阿姨，叔婆，叔叔婶婶............... :))

哈哈! 原谅我，我真的很喜欢这套衣服，感觉我自己很帅!! 哈哈哈哈~

他们是我挚爱中的成员!!!!

我好喜欢他陪我的感觉.....

大家庭! 啊其实也不是很大啦... :DD

这几天把戏院的三套电影看完了.. 《 i LOVE Hong Kong 开心万岁》，《最强喜事》，《新少林寺》。《i love hong kong》还要看了两次，啊算了，反正有人请，不妨进去再笑一下，哈!! 《新》真的非常好看!! 果然18岁以下不能看，拳拳到肉而且还是要很血腥下，但是感动!! 尤其是他的主题曲，绝配!! 尽在不言中!

啊什么时候了??!! 4.51am!! 睡觉去了啦~
annyeonghii people.

had reunion dinner with my entire big family just now, we really had a lot of fun every year! this year my uncle bring something new to us, a bicycle yet motorbike. a type of vehicle that contain 2 usages that you can cycle it as normal bicycle or cycle like a motorbike, everyone likes it FOR SURE. kelvin use the bike and fetch me after the reunion dinner, we did what we usually do, chit chat. the cold wind blows toward us, i kept scream because he simply drove the bike but i knew he just kidding with me. ILY ;)) hes the only one who can accompany me.

i walked to my popo house and i bring along the so called kong-ming-deng. we wrote a lot of wishes and we put it with all the steps i remembered, yet we SUCCEED! :)) i really hope that our wishes will come true. i never expect much.

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yes i admit i started to feel boring over here but i just love to spend my time with all of you. i really hate people never give my any respond as i really! really hope you guys can come over and we can go out together. i think every program in order to let you guys feel not boring because anyhow i am the only one who keep persuade you guys to come. I HATE BEING IGNORE. i know you guys got a lot of program over there, i am just like... alright. WHATEVER.

annyeonghii people.

facial treatment was awesome! HAHAHAHA i enjoyed very much and it was sooooo comfort until i fall asleep. i bought some so called kong-ming-deng from chris for CNY, just feel like i never play this kind of stuff during CNY with my family, so i am gonna have a try! ;))

HAHAHA. i have no idea, this is kak wati's bro. SO CUTE!! LOL

went out yamcha with buddies around 10pm and decided for another activity.
THIS IS IT!!

had a tried to put with them, pretty fun!

wuuuuuuuuuuuu. why still not able to meet you up? :(( i thought i saw your friends and i will see you, but too bad. HAHAHAHAH is okay fine because i met another one up. lalalalala

okay, i want to sleep!
annyeonghii people.