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是不是说，越多秘密的人，越多朋友/知心朋友? 其实你变的越来越不像你自己，让我 ... 不敢再靠近你。自从我知道了后，感觉 ... 我不想再向前任何一步，只想退后，退到你/你们看不见我的地方，即使说我胆小。我真的好害怕，好想离开。以前的你在哪里了? 为什么变了? 在我遇到瓶颈的时候，你永远都是我最想找的人。但自从你变了以后，就算到了瓶颈的极限，我还是找不到适合的人选。或许说，别人比我遇瓶颈的时候多，你到他们那里去了。

突然间，不想和你有任何的关系，即使是敌人也不想，因为敌人也是种关系。我常常想恨你，想尽办法，理由去恨你，可是那些所谓的理由跟办法，都不是我所要的。简单来说，我恨不下去。你最喜欢的，就是秘密。

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wheeeeeeeeeeee. i was just came back from my dad's friend BBQ party. i realize that the generation of my dad, they all can maintain their friendship pretty well. i heard them still singing song together altho they are now at least 50 years old. i was so envy and sinful that i didn't bring along my camera and shoot those memorable scenes down. i love to serve small kids, if they demand for something, they can be very well manner, they keep their manner till the end for sure. i really love them.

besides, i found my childhood friend in fb again. shes getting more prettier and shes departing to aussie too. hmm, there are a lot of people whos flying out of malaysia. like julius, last minute our yc plan eventually realized and i did feel a little bit reluctant to say good bye. why people keep leaving? :((

i want to wake up earlier.
annyeonghii people.