live . laugh . love ♥

since the hols still hasn't begun, the sky has started to rain. today, quite a good day as now, at least i can't really gaze the sky longer because its bright enough. i can nearly see some blue sky in another corner of the sky :) and of course birds flying around. had a nice conversation with cj yesterday night, we were chattin about the thief who intruded his house at first but we changed slowly to some inner thoughts. we were like mother and daughter re-encounter, lols. yet, i have seen something that i shouldn't know, and i have confused till don't even know what to do. i stunned there and think a lot, i can't fall it deeper even deepest. i've told myself about that. its just something like one-side word, how it could influence me easily? i have to stop it as early as possible. because of i don't like it, i know what are you thinking, but why? why you still need to say such? it will only makes me feel disagreeable, irritable. i don't really expect much, i just hope that you will stop playing.. with me perhaps. then i'll feel better and even you?